Day Eleven

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

Today was a routine day in regards to work, school, etc. Hope and worry filled the entire day. Part of me was celebrating a good three days and hoping that tomorrow was good news and this was over. The other part was thinking about what if tomorrow was just the beginning. This truly is a rollercoaster of emotions.

I received the FMLA paperwork. I am truly blessed being employed at a company that puts people above profits. When I told my boss, he said take whatever time you need, and he'll do anything to help. He said not to worry about work. 5 years ago, I was close to taking a different job when he called me and talked about this opportunity. I know God had a reason to put me in this job, in this town, and at our church. Thank you, Lord!

Ana came over to be with Mirjan today, and I think she really needed that. I wish I could do more for her, and I'm trying, praying, and working to take as much worry off her shoulders. She is such a wonderful, loving person and a beautiful, caring mother. I hate to see her hurt this much.

Today, Angela brought food over, which was a blessing. However, Ryan, like yesterday, was determined to fix his own dinner. He wanted to make a ham and cheese sandwich, and he said he could do it by himself. Eventually, we got him to eat the food that was brought and all was good. At almost every meal, he says that he is not going to eat it, but sooner or later he does and tells us that it was good food.

I went to the church committee meeting this evening, and it felt good sharing some of my experiences over the past week. By nature, I don't normally just jump out there with information, but something is changing in me....at least a little bit.

Mirjan and I talked, cried, and prayed again.

God, please bless and heal my little boy.